End of my holidaysssssss

Again, I have wasted my holiday peacefully...

Ended without doing anything useful...

At least this time I spend most of the time with my frens... with all friends that study abroad nor at KL, Melaka this and that...

I think I have around half and a yearwe din meet each other especially my 2 buddies, chun kit and kent...

these 2 best ever buddies just come back from Singapore and I still remember that day they leave me alone at Ipoh!!! >.< ( just joking.. haha)

But I think I have make a smarter choice for me even some of my friends says that i should study at colleges... haha...

because i have found someone that is truely important to me somehow I should stay here...

tomorrow there will be another gathering for we with our Sejarah tuition teacher Miss Lee..

I hope all of us can attend that gathering and meet together which seems like we have lost contact with each other for long time ago since we have been separated after tha farewell party...

haha... I think this hard to be occur because some of them still have their study week and might have to go back earlier.. haha...

but... i think is ok... there will still have the chance we can gather and chat happily just like the days we have our tuition... ^.^

dissapointment life

and finally, i have collected my last paper for my monthly test.

2day, i was just unhappy for the whole day starts from the moment that all the results have come out....

I was so dispressed and even cant concentrate on my favourite topics - DNA and photosynthesis tought by mr choong.

Mr choong was a very good teacher actually and I just dono why i just could'nt pay attention on his class...

Nt only that, Mdm Carrie, my chemistry teacher. What she tought this few days i not even understand and starts could'nt to catch up...

I wonder what happen to me actually....

I started to fed up and my morale started to drop.

In this monthly test, I have full dissapointment on my all subjects that i have taken..

PA, Chemistry, Biology, Muet, and even my favourite subject, maths that proudly be my first 'fail' subject in my entire study life.....

36 marks?! I wonder what happen to me actually....

For the others subjects, i can said that i have gave my whole strength on it, i read it!!! i understand it!!! But .... why?

My mom scolded me din study and always sit infront of the computer.

bt i really tried my best in this test and now what i got here, i really don't know how to answer her....

acually i'm not jealous on you, i just don't want you to worry on me.

cause sometimes when i talk about studies, you will sad too, so i didn't tell you just now..

I just feels that my world has started to change.

The darkness finded me, and the devil tolds me to regret and fed up on my studies.

But do I really have to do so?

I don't think so.....

Starting from tommorrow, there will be no more 'lame' in my dictionary....

im sick...

fuh... i seems long time din update my blog... haha....

yeah.. as you all see in my title, i'm sick....

this happen since yesterday and i was really feels not well for whole day long...

at first, i was quite scared because all i suffer was the symptoms for H1N1... - fever, sore throat and cough....

wao, a close one.... luckily today i already feels ok and no fever anymore... phew.....

anyway, thanks for my all friends who are caring on me....

it's gonna a busy life

again.. one week has gone...

and my weekends wasted again...

on friday, all clubs having their Annual General Meeting(AGM) to give away their jobs to the new commitees...

I attended 4 meetings at that day and quite busy that day... haha

at the end, i have get 2 posts on that day... president of band harmonica and vice president of safety and emergency club

Oh my god... all is president... haizzz.... I thik it's gonna my most busy study life in my entire life....

little student have lose in his finals.....

ya.. thats right... I'm lose in my finals....

In a group game, I have fail to contribute a point for my team....

and in the end, we stil won our champion in badminton match... The score is 3-2....

yeah.. 3-2 again.... I cant even think about the score is 3-2.... I was just too confidence on it but i have lose one of the game in the match....

even we have won the champion and everyone is celebrating with it, at the back, I was on down mood....

I'm down because I was lose the game - the game that almost makes my team lose the trophy....

the game that can kill of the opponent and won the champion earlier....

My game was in third game... One of the most important point was handle in my hand...

This is because we have won the last 2 games and this point could be our championship point...

But I was lose it... I was lose the chance to bring back the champion earlier and have to play until the last game due to our men's doubles lose da match....

In women's double, yuen kei and yi shyan have a narrow win with 2-1 win over the oppenent and we can sang along 'we are the champion' in the end....

a closed match huh? yeah.... is true after my lose......

but, i have to thanks my 'sister' gang which concole me after the game.. THANK YOU....

freedom

i love freedom...

but some of you just dont' give me do that...

i just feels that my freedom have been locked by you all...

when im form 3, you all not allowed me to use handphone....

when im form 4, you all not allowed me playing PS2....

when im form 5, you all not allowed me to play computer games....

even now im form 6, you all still control my lifestyle, control my freedom and control my way to do things....

even you all at KL, but you all spy on me through internet...

says me too addicted on facebook,msn this and that...

but you all don't know and would never know...

how hard was my lifestyle now...

I was living in a stressful life and live without the help of ANY ONE....

I was trying to release my pressure though online and is it bad?

you are not my parents and sister and you all just my elder cousins!!!

could you all just leave me alone and give me some freedom?

if you do so I will SO appreciate and thank you... BUT....

I know you all wont' do that so....

I just feels that,

my freedom will be locked by you all.......... FOREVER....

english blogs or chinese blogs?

hmm... actually now im wondering which launguage should i prefer in my blogs..

english? mandarin?

english might not be my mother launguage since i was study in chinese school since i was in kindergarden...

everything around me is those chinese words and not even an english....

but if i choose chinese as my launguage in my blogs, it might not so interesting as i thought...

p/s : even i know quite many of grammer mistakesssssssssss that i have made that might make you all confuse on what i have wrote....

hmm.... what should i do.... T-T